Preview from the first page of my book: White Picket Fence Disease and Other Strange Phenomenons, By Denise Scarbro
After my marriage ended, I found myself a 34 year-old single woman with two young children and no adult dating experience. My ex and I had been together since we were both 18, and after 16 years of living out the course of a failed relationship, I had no idea what I wanted, what I needed, or what I was doing. My level of self-esteem was directly tied to the attention and approval I received from others. Some attention was better than no attention, and because I had no clue what I wanted, I redefined what I was willing to accept as validation of my self-worth constantly.
What a confusing time! I am still ironing out all of the kinks and now, ten years later, I am finally getting closer to understanding the simplicity of what it means to be happy. I have gone through a lot of ups and downs, all of which added to the total sum of who I am today. I would not change a single thing for that reason alone, but I can certainly say that I wish the road had been little easier to travel. The road ahead will likely have some bumps and turns, a few potholes and detours, but at least now I have new tires on this ride and I know where the mental service station is whenever I need a tune up.